make a splash..hahahaha..not if I can help it

I dunno. This might be my last summer with Clive. Its not like its final, and its supposedly not me.

He wants to move. He hates his job and he just can't wait to travel. But I'm not wanting to go anywhere just yet. Sure, my job is not perfect and I work with strange people, but who doesn't.

I finally get full time which he'd been on my case forever and then he wants to up and quit his. I'm not sure what to do. Maybe Jonah can move in. I don't really want to leave here. Of course, I wish Jonah had a job. He's like a brother to me. And I used to live with him and his Mom. But we had some drama and well, I'm not exactly like that anymore, but I wouldn't want to move back in with her because she's like totally different with her new husband and well, it seems life is so slow lately when it comes to wanting to find a job and a career and everything.

I mean, I was so happy and everything with Clive because I wasn't expecting it. But he's got issues. And he needs to get that cleared up. Hopefully, I'll see my brother in June. Its been a very long time. He's in the military. He told me he's looking for a wife. I wanted to laugh, but I couldn't.

Anyway, I have to be upbeat. Starting Monday the new Summer Reading program kicks in.

I haven't gotten Will Grayson Will Grayson read like I should have. I'm afraid I'll have to wait to finish it. Because there are lot of holds on it. I do like the fact that the band got mentioned that I was so  crazy about a few years ago. Now not so much. Its funny when you can't remember why you found a band so special now. Of course, I loved the fact that these guys preactially lived for music. Very indie.

Naturally, I've been wanting to write about musicians. Oddly, though, I've never wanted to date one. I had a cousin who was with a drummer for a while and uh.. He was kind of a dick. Clive looks like he could be in a band, but he'd rather be playing World of War Craft. Yeap, that guy would be happy to have a fridge full of beer and his computer set to the game and not care about anything else. Maybe I should be happy he's going.

I guess its change I don't like.